"But while he was yet at a distance, his father saw him and had compassion, and ran and embraced him and kissed him."When things go terribly, tragically wrong? Who is to blame? When life is unfair and we are punished for no reason at all, who should we be angry at?
– Luke 15:20
Well, the boss; the man in charge. That's God, right? After all, he's the one with the big plan. He's the all-seeing, all-knowing eternal one. He's supposed to care about each and everyone of us.
Our usual response to personal suffering is "I don't believe in God". Why? Because if there is a God then why does he allow these bad things to happen? Or even worse, why does he make these bad things happen?
Fine then. If you don't believe in God, then why are you angry at God? How can you be angry at something that according to you doesn't even exist?
And then to get back at God our usual response is to do things to make God angry. God doesn't like cursing; fine, I'll be foul-mouthed. God doesn't like sex outside of marriage; fine, I'll be promiscuous. God likes us to pray to him; fine, I won't pray. How do you like that God? How does it make you feel? What? You started it, remember? You were the one that punished me for no reason. Are you angry at me? Fine, then I'm angry right back at you.
But, who are you talking to? Remember? You don't believe in God. He doesn't exist.
And who are you punishing? Are you punishing God, or are you punishing yourself? God does not stop loving you just because you are angry at him. God does not love you any less just because you argue that you don't believe in him.
But we are human after all and when we suffer a great loss or great pain, we feel empty; we feel lost. We feel alone. Where is God?
God is there at our moment of greatest pain. At times he may be the only one we have left. God's infinite love and mercy are always there to forgive us and embrace us.
What we need – what we often lack at times like these – is a deep faith in God.
The saints are our role models. They welcome hardship. It only deepens their faith.
Most of us with our immature and undeveloped faith, lose our faith in God at the first real hardship. As children we are given the grace of an innocent faith that never questions God. But as we grow older if this faith has not been nurtured and has not matured, then when our faith is tested it quickly withers.
It is like a young seedling that sprouts quickly. It has all the nutrition it needs to begin life in the very seed from which it sprung. But if the young plant is not given the right amounts of water and fertilizer and sunlight, then it will never reach maturity.
Our culture is the environment in which we grow – in which we are "cultivated". It is a barren and poisonous environment which threatens the very existence of our faith.
Don't be angry at God. He is doing everything he can to combat the evil one. It is up to us to do our part to create a Kingdom of Heaven here on earth. We can start inside our own selves. We can obtain God's nourishment for our souls by praying to God and allowing him to establish his kingdom inside of us.
Our job is to love God. God's job is to love us. You can be sure that God is doing his job, but are you doing your job?
Don't be angry at God. You are just punishing yourself, by turning away from him. Turn and face God. Convert. Ask him to forgive you. Repent. Feel the joy of God's love. Worship God.